(another broken promise...) I was scrolling through my gallery and saw this photo from earlier this year. My plan was to keep this and make a collage of our selfies once we finish our seven LST (Love Someone Today) sessions. I was so hopeful and excited that day because after 13 years in the community, I'll be finally be having a one-on-one discipleship session with a leader that I trust and admire. Back then, I can still remember the feeling of joy and the risk of finally le

The night when I want to end it all

A reflection on birthdays, growth, and the beauty in simplicity

“What if I just vanished?” Not death. No. Not grief, not tragedy. Just disappearance. A quiet undoing. One blink and I am gone—as if I had slipped into thin air, reappearing in a place where no one knows my name, where my story begins again with clean pages. The idea visits me sometimes, always uninvited, yet never unwelcome.

[continuation from part 1] “Have you ever felt like a train desperate to jump the tracks? I guess that’s me. I wanted to be a train...

(One year after I said my final goodbye to the person I'd grown to love.) "Each departing train carried a piece of my love, leaving you...