“JUST BREATHE”

As the clouds form in the distance, I saw two birds flying happily in the air. As they spread their wings, I didn't feel any worries or doubts which is somewhat odd. For the past months, I have forgotten this feeling of calmness, this tranquility that I only feel when everything is going according to my plans. But today, it is different. The bright green grass that covered the little hills of the park as the sun's rays radiating from up above tells me that everything will be ok. The mushroom-like umbrellas and empty benches and tables that are properly positioned for an afternoon party didn't bother me at all. The surprisingly fresh wind from the west and acoustic music in the background makes my heart full for no reason. And at that point, I looked up and just close my eyes for a little while. Allowing myself to be free and just letting go of all the baggage I've been carrying for so long. I breathe. And it was wonderful. All of a sudden, a few birds decided to hop around me looking for something to eat. Will they find their lunch today? I smiled. Knowing deep in my heart that they will. I breathe. And it was wonderful. Looking back, I realized how stupid I am for trying to look for the right people who will say the right words at me. Not knowing that the people that I'm looking for are already with me. And the words that I want to hear may not be what I expected but I know they are real. I was so caught by the storm in my mind not because there is no way out. But because I'm so used to this storm that I don't know what sunshine means anymore. But right now, in the middle of my stillness, I once again introduced to the sun of hope and new beginnings. I breathe. And it was wonderful. From the shades of the trees, I stepped out. Into the open to greet the light once more. And this time, I will rise up again. And again. And again. I felt peace. And when there is peace, there is God. As the surprisingly fresh wind from the west comes back for another blow, I breathe. And it was wonderful.