"FINALLY!"

(originally posted 4.30.2023)

Last night was indeed a night where I can say that I've finally been heard. I never felt this experience for so many years now, and when I was able to fully express my thoughts with the people whom I trust, I just felt complete.

There was never a plan that we would be discussing our past hurts. It was supposed to be a simple catch-up, but after a sip of coffee and a sumptuous dinner, one conversation led to another, and I just found myself expressing my deepest wounds.

The only difference this time is that last night, there were no more tears of loneliness or desperation. It was more about realizing the things that I did wrong, having regrets, and finding my worth as a person.

As I say those words of self-respect, I imagine that there is a fourth person in our circle, and that is another me. A smiling, fully empowered, fully confident "me." A sense of joy and pride filled my heart as I was complimented and honored by my buddies. I also patted myself on the back and told myself, "Good job!"

I now believe that I'm on the right path to knowing who I am. I learned how to give myself some slack, allowing myself to stumble and let go of the things I couldn't control. I learned how to protect my peace and set boundaries. Avoid toxic people from the onset, but as much as possible, don't judge them just because your relationship with that person didn't flourish.

This might be my "version 2.0," but I know I'm not perfect. I will still make mistakes, but that one step back will propel me to take two steps forward.

Thank you to my friends Bro.Dadan and Bro.Staecy for being there at the moment of my growth. You guys are simply the best!

#brotherhood